On the 13th day of Lindsay Clancy's murder trial, a Massachusetts jury heard that her phone contained searches for 'How to slit your throat to die?' and 'Can you turn airbags off on Kia Sorento?' — questions a lead forensic detective admitted he had not located during his original analysis. The same day those searches came to light, prosecutors also read aloud a notes app entry in which Clancy wrote that she resented her own children. This trial is not getting easier to sit with.
The Computer and the Tom Hall Rabbit Hole
The day started with Massachusetts State Police Sgt. Kyle Pavao, a former cybercrime investigator, testifying about what he found on a Microsoft Surface Pro taken from the Clancy home. According to CBS News, Pavao confirmed that someone had visited a website titled 'suicide methods' on August 23, 2022. That visit, he said, came through a chain of clicks that started with a Google search for singer-songwriter Tom Hall, who died by suicide, after someone had been listening to him on Spotify.
Defense attorney Kevin Reddington moved fast on cross-examination. He pointed out that Patrick Clancy, Lindsay's husband, 'loved Tom Hall' — and that Pavao had no way to confirm whether it was actually Lindsay who ran that search. Reddington's point was simple and well-placed: someone else could have been logged into her account. Pavao was off the stand before 10:30 a.m., but the doubt he left behind was the kind that doesn't dissolve quickly.
A Notes App Entry That Will Stay With You
After Pavao, former State Police detective Timothy Chiappini took the stand to walk the jury through his forensic analysis of Lindsay Clancy's iPhone. What came next was one of the more gut-punch moments in a trial full of them. CBS News reports that Chiappini read aloud a notes app entry from October 25, 2022, roughly three months before the killings.
In it, Clancy wrote about feeling depressed, about resenting her older children because they prevented her from giving her infant the same level of attention she had given her first child, and about wanting to feel connected to all three of her kids. 'I just want to feel happy,' she wrote. 'I want to be able to relax and take care of my kids.' She wrote about wanting eight hours of sleep. About wanting to pour into herself every morning. About how her baby Cal was 'so very planned and desired.' It reads less like a confession and more like a person drowning in slow motion, trying to describe the water.
The prosecution's use of this note is obvious: it establishes a mental state of distress and, critically, resentment. The defense's counter-argument, which has been consistent throughout this trial, is that this is exactly what severe postpartum psychosis looks like from the inside.
The Day of the Killings, Reconstructed Through Texts
Chiappini also testified about text messages and calls between Lindsay and Patrick Clancy on January 24, 2023 — the day Lindsay strangled her three children before jumping from a second-story window. CBS News reports that much of their communication that afternoon was ordinary to the point of being surreal: the two were texting about picking up dinner from a restaurant called ThreeV. Clancy had even searched the restaurant in Apple Maps.
At some point after 5 p.m., Patrick called twice and got no answer. Lindsay then called back and they spoke for approximately 14 seconds. Reddington, during cross-examination, made sure the jury also heard about a text Lindsay sent Patrick that same day — a photo of two of their children posing with a snowman. Patrick replied: 'You're a good Mamma.' That was January 24, 2023.
The Searches the Detective Didn't Find
This is where the afternoon got complicated. Reddington used his cross-examination of Chiappini to surface a list of searches on Lindsay Clancy's phone that the detective said he did not recall locating during his forensic review. The list, as CBS News reports, included 'How to slit your throat to die?' and 'Can you turn airbags off on Kia Sorento?' Reddington also asked about searches for schizophrenia, psychosis, and hallucinations, along with dozens of searches about medications Clancy had been prescribed.
Chiappini's repeated answer — 'I don't recall' and 'not specifically' — is the kind of response that cuts both ways in a courtroom. For the prosecution, it's an investigator being careful about what he can confirm. For the defense, it's a forensic analyst who missed, or at least did not prioritize, evidence that goes directly to the question of whether Lindsay Clancy was in a psychotic break. A January 19 search about hallucinations, five days before the killings, is not a detail that fades into the background.
Blood Spatter, Strangulation Timelines, and a Museum Trip
After lunch, lead homicide investigator Joshua McKelligan took the stand. He responded to the Clancy home in the early morning hours of January 25, 2023, and testified about what he found there — photographs and video showing blood spatter were shown in court. McKelligan also confirmed that he knew Clancy was on psychiatric medications at the time and included that information in the search warrant for the home.
The prosecution asked McKelligan to recall what the medical examiner told him about strangulation timelines. CBS News reports his answer: unconsciousness comes first, and then death takes several additional minutes. That detail is not in the record by accident. The prosecution wants the jury to understand that the deaths of these three children were not instantaneous. The court also saw video from a family outing to the Museum of Science before ending early for the day.
The Dingo Take
You are supposed to look at the phone searches — 'How to slit your throat to die,' 'Can you turn airbags off,' hallucinations, psychosis, schizophrenia — and conclude that Lindsay Clancy was a calculating murderer who knew exactly what she was doing. The prosecution is betting on it. But you can also look at that exact same list and see someone who was desperately, frantically Googling her own deteriorating mind in the weeks before everything collapsed. The searches don't resolve the central question of this trial. They ARE the central question of this trial.
The defense has maintained from the beginning that Clancy was in a severe postpartum psychotic episode and had no meaningful grasp of reality when she killed her children. The prosecution has maintained that the evidence of premeditation — the planning, the awareness, the mundane dinner texts — proves otherwise. Both of those arguments got material to work with today, which tells you something about how close this is going to be.
What doesn't get lost in the legal maneuvering is the October notes entry, read aloud in a Massachusetts courtroom by a detective to a jury of strangers. A woman wrote that she just wanted to feel happy, that she wanted to sleep, that she wanted to love all her children the way they deserved. Three months later, all three of those children were dead. Whatever verdict this jury reaches, that note is going to be the thing that follows everyone who heard it out of that courtroom and into the rest of their lives.
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